A few things to consider as you receive communion:
Your sin has not separated you from God.
God has only LOVE for you, and we are never separated from God.
Your confession doesn't change God's mind about you.
God has only LOVE for you.
God doesn't need to be reconciled to you.
LOVE has already reconciled you.
Christ already forgave you at the cross.
LOVE has forgiven all.
God's love does not waiver in response to your human condition.
LOVE never waivers.
This may just be about being reconciled to your own accusing conscience. Please let Jesus be the Lord over your conscience. The important thing is not to slink away into shame or hide from God like Adam and Eve did. rather, as quickly as you can, get up, and rush back to the Father's house, enter in and be embraced in the Father's arms.
As you receive the bread and wine, receive with open hands, an open heart, and a willingness to let go of all the things that trouble you today. Lord have Mercy! Amen
Please accept the forgiveness and mercy God gives, and give the forgiveness and mercy to yourself where you may have withheld it.